my current obsessions
Among musical habits, political insistences, and critical thought, some things wander in my head every day or trap me in their halos in a strange way.
- Lana Del Rey: My favorite singer and songwriter, characterized by the melancholy, introspectiveness, and cinematic quality in her art. Ultraviolence is my favorite album from her.
- Radical feminism: The subset of feminism that aims to liberate women and marginalized communities from the patriarchy, the oppressive and entrenched system that benefits men and exploits other identities. It contrasts with liberal feminism and criticizes the systemic reality. -* see note!
- Queer pride: The movement of resistance against homophobia and celebration of diverse self-expression.
- Tuxedo Sam: A fictional but very silly, cute, and fashionable penguin - the most unserious list item here. He's in the favicon, and he owns 365 bow ties!
a note on radical feminism ‼⊹
I acknowledge that radical feminism has problematic connotations of transphobia and a lack of intersectionality. In my lexicon, "radical" describes views on society that focus on the root of oppression and demand structural change.
With more specificity, I identify as an anarcha-feminist because it relates better to my overall views of anarchism - in opposition to the prevalent undervaluation of feminist concerns. I firmly support transgender inclusion and queer liberation, along with the total liberation of all peoples.
Misogyny is very relevant, even among leftist circles. Some men don't even see the patriarchy as a valid system but merely a distraction from the real struggle of class exploitation. Sincerely, such a thought pattern resembles a means to silence women as long as they've been throughout history and appeals to the assumption that either the working class or women overall are incapable of understanding the complex nature of oppression.
I believe that centering female and queer oppression is more than necessary today and that such an approach is essential to battle not only misogyny, homophobia, and transphobia, but also capitalism itself. While it's impossible for women and queer people to liberate themselves under capitalism, a revolution of the working class doesn't guarantee the end of the patriarchy, white supremacy, or State.
Finally, I'm a learning feminist and just as interested in politics as an ordinary high schooler would be. My blog posts on feminism claim definitely no expertise and mostly draw from my lived experiences. Each one is an attempt to lay out my progressing resistance as long as we queer teenagers continue to survive.
We could get lost in the purple rain,
Talk about the good old days.
I could get drunk on some pink champagne,
Lost in the purple haze.
my writings
On each skimming eye, you shall see political commentaries, philosophical essays, poetical and experimental works, and self-reflections of mine.
I complain extensively about misogyny and homophobia and rightly so, but over time, I have sketched out some purely artistic works and fewer entries that center on politics with a hassled tone. Guess what I have to say about school (and my writing frequency).
You caught me once.
Maybe on the flipside, I could catch you again.
You caught me once.
Maybe on the flipside, you could catch me again.
dancing jovial penguin ♡
A penguin has been dancing in the middle of a street. They say,
"What is an animal doing here? Was it given a strange poison? A
delirious penguin, a new outbreak!"
The penguin can sense the words, but it makes no single remark.
Instead, the penguin chuckles out of joy or dreams that it does.
This is the dancing jovial penguin.
Behind the penguin is an unfortunate, human persona: an introverted, queer teen. Will my thoughts and feelings ever stop their accelerating dance? In my mind is a room for art, writing, activism, computer science, politics, and a fatal analysis of one's own problems. Welcome to my personal website.
See my writings at #blogs.
a short background ❀˖°.
I have always had a desire to learn new things. The internet was a successful path in satisfying this drive. In passion, I would share with my friends the new concepts that I had learned. Despite having so much to say, however, I could express only a little portion of what I meant. Then arose an idea for a personal website where I could share my opinions, reflections, and disappointments at full volume.
It is my non-conforming identity that has driven a critical attitude in me. I realized early that some norms and long-held beliefs were in direct conflict with my happiness and my mind that seeks justifications. As the following day signaled the beginning of Pride Month in 2025, the inspiration to create this website struck me more intensely on May 31st, 2025.
In hopes to improve my coding and design skills, crafting template websites was already one of my habits. So I decided to hand-code this website, decorate it with a specific stylesheet that allures me, and express my inner world at the same time. It appears that I have had a fondness for the digital world since I was young.
How did I discover Neocities beforehand? When I was scrolling on Pinterest, some websites appeared on my feed, and I was struck by their delightful designs and the sense of nostalgia they evoked. Each website had an abundance of self-expression and did not demand just ephemeral attention. At the same time, it appealed to me how one's website could be hosted publicly and be listed among others for free. I then placed a bookmark on Neocities in my headspace.
Like everyone else, I have so many thoughts and emotions every day. Having dealt with anxiety since my childhood, I did not want to censor myself as much as I had done before. At times, of course, this website feels intense to me, but I nevertheless find pride in maintaining it. I realize that I still have my insecurities and that I still fear judgement.
Ever since, this place has become a vulnerable medium for my likings and my thoughts. It is neither for show nor a means of monetary gain but a project to represent who I am, who I desire to be, and what I want this website to be. You can treat this website as an art project that represents my survival journey, an informative writing website, or a mix of both. Sometimes, it is half-cooked, repetitive, baseless, and irrelevant but a source of enjoyment and expression.
what awaits you ⋆. 𐙚 ̊
You might hear me say "blogs" or "blog posts." However, each of my writings appears to be longer than the average blog post, and they are not necessarily formatted like a diary. For this reason, I have started to call my writings "writings," a vaguer term, but I feel that it is a better word. My writings, as the name implies, appear in the #blogs section.
What informs my writings? What are my interests and my values? What are some questions that I tackle? In the #obsessions section, you can see what my mind loves to fixate on. I divert from one topic to another, so you might expect changes in #obsessions, or the page might not be fully up-to-date all the time.
On the bottom of each section, a tiny, purple Lana Del Rey song lyric glares. I love her songs, and I think they make a nice addition to the website.
miscellaneous final thoughts ₊˚⊹ ᰔ
While I used to have a paragraph here explaining how I have not used JavaScript for the navigation functionality of the website, I realized that this feels like no longer a big deal. In the future, I might start integrating JavaScript to enhance the functionality of the navigation, so I keep that paragraph archived for now.
You must have noticed the background image. It is a drawing that I have created on Krita in about 10 minutes or less. I love watching the rain, so I thought it would act as a pleasant background image. In addition, I could not stand the lack of graphics on this website. So instead of a plain-colored background, you have a scene of poorly-drawn raindrops. By the way, Krita is a free and open-source software for drawing, so why don't you give it a chance?
Lastly, this website is mobile-friendly. Click the prideful Nyan cat to toggle its animation play state and transparency especially if you find it distractive. Maybe an option to hide the cat completely could have been more satisfying, so my apologies for that. ヾ(｡･ω･)ｼ
See website source code on GitHub.
I guess they really got the best of us, didn't they?
They said that love was enough, but it wasn't.
The earth shattered, the sky opened.
The rain was fire, but we were wooden.
where else you can find me
And when you're scared, I'll be right here.
— Lana Del Rey, Cherry BlossomYou feel afraid, mommy is there.
It's a cruel, cruel world, but we don't care.
'Cause what we've got, we've got to share.